sometimes i feel like running away from the reality, go hide in one corner


sometimes i feel like crying, but tears just dun seem to flow.

IT'S TRUE.
running away is just a doing of a coward, but after facing so much pressure do i have anymore more choice but to try to run away even when i cant.
i'm just deceiving myself that i could run away, when all i could do is actually to press on harder and presevere.
IT'S OK. BE STRONG!

crying. i would love very much to cry.
probably after crying i would feel better, but the pressure still exits.
CRY FOR WAT?

the verdict will be out soon, i guess.
hoping for the best, i dunno if i'm the only one worrying.
or perhaps i'm just being a paranoid bitch.

i would love be to nonchalant, sometimes i jus act nonchalant, trying my best to deceive myself, hoping that the problem would disintegrate. i'm just being naive.

i always appear happy. it's true that i'm happy most of the times. but i do have sad times too.
i jus appear happy in order to hide my sadness, hoping that happiness would bring away the sadness, my pressure and problems. i love being happy =]

i miss weisheng and paulies.
and also v much daniel.
i'm looking forward to a meeting wit weisheng and paulies, where we talk and chill =]