ytd i was doing my chem tutorial...
i really get down n started doing it...
i was happily doing it...
i finished the 1st question but couldnt get the ans...
so i tried again but nv get the ans...
and again n again...
still cant...
i was not discouraged but i moved on to the next question...
i read the question n sort of couldnt really get the question...
haiz...
i feel so bad...
then i read the other questions...
i was kinda of clueless too...
omg... tt's when my thinking went wild...
i began to think...
" am i gonna make it in jc?"
" y didnt i choose poly?"
" y cant i do? how? am i gonna do badly in jc?"
" shld i go to poly instead by appealing there?"
n mani other things la...
then i was really scared la...
i felt so arghHHH...
i give up...
i stopped doing my homework n packed my bad...
getting ready to slp..
then i saw my fren online n decided to ask her bout the chem tutorial...
then she enlighten me..
and i knew how to do le...
then i felt better n better as i progress doing the work...
i jus hate it when i cant get the ans for any homework...
its jus plain irritatin...
!!!!
so i did the chem n went to slp...
then today...
jus now, i was jus hopping ard blogs...
and happened to read a few entries on about o lvl results...
choosing jc or poly... and ppl's decision...
i was kinda of affected by the blogs...
i began thinking again!
"mayb i'm suited to poly..."
"since i dun really know my work in jc now mayb i shld really go to a poly..."
blahz blahz...
then was also affected by their reasons for going to poly..
hai...
then also jus now an uncle called n asked me where i am going to study next...
i told him and blahz...
then he shooted " y not poly?"
i replied " i dunno?"
then he asked again " y jc?"
i replied " dunno" again!
i didnt say dunno bcos i wanted to end the conversation...
i said dunno bcos i was really lost...
tt short sentence of " y jc?"
set me thinking....
" y did i choose jc?"
then i couldnt really think of one gd one...
omg!..
then my head kept revolving saying tt i shld go to poly.. blahz...
and finally i came out wit the reasons y i decided to go to a jc...
1. it's easier to get into a uni wit a A lvls' cert, it has always been my "dream" to get into a uni.
2. if i were to go to a poly complete it and get my dip. i might be discourage to study harder for a degree or better. as i then may have the thinking " i already have dip le mahz. can find job le"
3. i am not really prepared to go into a specialised area yet... i dun wanna study poly jus for the sake of studying poly. then i dun wan to regret later after studying one yr of a particular poly course... SO!! jc might be better!
hahaha...
i feel so much better blogging n stating out my reasons clearly...
b4 i blogged...
i feel so argHHHH, jus like how i felt when i was deciding b/w jc or poly n the courses to take in poly...
i dunno whether did i dig out those reasons to comfort n convince myself of my choice or wat...
BUT now i feel beta n stronger!
jus like britney spears' song "Stronger"
"now i'm stronger than ytd"
i blive i will be stronger n i blive i would make it in jc!
bcos i will work hard in jc!
i promise to work hard le..
i wanna jia you!
i can n will do it!
AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!~
this stress n the feel is tormenting!
